Get out of my head...

So I'm tired of thinking of you I want you to get out of my head. And then I would love for you to be in my life again. I fear that I will never have what we once had as friends ever again with anyone else and its not only hurting me but its hurting the one person that means the world to me, and that makes me feel even worse. The destruction you created in my life feels irreparable and hurts so much still even after more than a year. I just want everything to be normal again, but it never will be....